CPR

I wish with all my heart that I didn't have to write this....today started with an incident I am still not able to deal with. We had one of our staff members who fell and had a seizure. I happened to be in the office when someone who speaks very little English come into the office, and was very distressed because one of the other ladies in the kitchen had fallen. I was standing there dealing with a student who came into the room where I was working on the computer with another teacher on a school improvement survey. I had walked the student to the office to find out what what going on and this woman that works in the cafeteria was very distressed saying....."Ms. Dobos, Ms. Turner fell...she is in the kitchen...come....come...help...Ms. Jeannie (person-in-charge in kitchen) not there...please...help." Thank God, I turned to our secretary of 2 days and said " Call 911" I thought this person had fallen down the stairs. I followed her to the kitchen where this person was on the floor face down and in convulsions. I have had 3 classes of CPR but just froze. I should have stayed with her but I didn't ....I couldn't stay there. I could only think about getting the EMS there and finding our principal to help. Once he was there, I left and went to the front door to await EMS. Finally, I heard the siren coming. (it was only 9 minutes but seemed like 90). I held the door and directed them to the kitchen. Within seconds they returned to the ambulance to get more equipment. After a few minutes they returned to get a board to bring her out. Some children were watching from across the street on the 3rd floor of their house. Finally they brought her out on a back board and I could tell she was "bagged" . Jeannie (the person-in-charge of the kitchen) pulled up just as the EMS was leaving. She said that this person had been having blood pressure issues and medication that made her tired. My principal said that she stopped breathing and had no pulse, and he performed CPR. EMS had to shock her 3 times. I t is now 8:00 at night and we have heard nothing. I am so sorry that I couldn't stay with her...I would want someone to stay with me if that had happened to me. Why am I so unable to to that???? I have been praying all day that it was a medication reaction or something that is fixable. No news is good new??? It is what it is but I am so hoping that what it IS, is ok.